Friday, March 12, 2010

surrender, will and change ....


t h e   t h r e s h o l d

 deciphering urges with action
        i can’t guess anymore
        i reach for the door
   fear and hope battling
   bones rattling
   what ifs chattering
unrealized dreams asking to be born
new clothes begging to be worn

sheer will drastically shifting the now

combing through thoughts
negotiating worries
bettin’ on the morning glory
    of a new dawn
       of a new day
     a new song
     a new sway

bettin' on the brawn
hoping for the gold
        brewing up the new
        composting the old

maps and petals pushing to unfold
 
    i turn the knob
 
                  and then let go... . 
   
after writing this
i sat with the word threshold... feeling it was one of those words with more to it than our current common use.  
  
thresh - to separate seed from a plant
  
to thresh the old ....
taking seeds from the past... 
those little golden nuggets that contain the secret to life ... and planting them in fertile soil 
for rebirth and new life...
composting the rest 
    
exactly what this poem is about....
written upon my decision to uproot myself from the familiar and push myself off shore into the unknown.
  
and then this one
written from my boat out at sea...
so to speak.
;-)
yet untitled...


charging my life with the electricity 
                        of dare and risk
i set the course
and then let myself drift

dip the oar deep    give a good heave
           then r e l e a s e 

       and let my life breathe

let this dream weave its course
     this dynamic dance of play and work
   
           i am still 
          in the middle
            
            at peace
         with the riddle

a strong muscle at ease
a tree firmly rooted and swaying in the breeze
  
i inhale this moment deeply
as if it were my last
             and then laugh
             because it just might be

because there is peace in knowing
that all of this goes
      w a y   b e y o n d   me
 

and even though it could be an illusion....
      
    today 

          i feel free